Tuesday, December 6, 2011

December 6, 2011

Forgive me for using this blog for a different reason today.  I am trying to work through a problem and I thought, if I wrote about it, it might be helpful.  So here goes.

This morning I had to go to the Clinic for blood work.  No big deal.  In and out in a few minutes.  HOWEVER, this morning, as soon as I drove into the parking lot, I started feeling sick. My doctor and nurses had said that this could happen.  Just the sights and smells of the location, even without the actual chemo, can make a person feel sick.

BUMMER!!!!  I get so anxious about next week and treatment #9.  My head knows that there are only four left and SURELY I can do that!!  But my SELF is dreading it so much.  I try to talk to myself and calm myself down, but I apparently don't want to listen to me.  I have felt sick ever since I left there this morning.  I usually can talk myself through anything, but this one has been stumped!

I have some medicine that the doctor gave me that I could take the night before so I can sleep.  But I really hate to do that.  Dana could tell you about the last time I took a Xanax [after minor tear duct surgery] and how badly I scared the kids.  Apparently, me and drugs don't always get along.

Hopefully, by Tuesday, I will have worked through this craziness.  It's not like I don't want to be through with the chemo.  Only four more.  SURELY I can do this!!!



Julie said...

I'm sorry about the nausea. What medicine did they give you? I always go to my future pharmacist hubby to ask questions. :) Hope you got some sleep and are feeling better! Love you!

Jessica M said...

Thoughts are with you!

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